Sunday, January 24, 2010

Ponderings on a windy Sunday morning

It has been a while since I took a moment to write anything, other than items for work. It is so early in the new year, yet I've allowed the world to push, pull and tug me away from my purpose. I feel like the apostle Paul. I want to do right, I truly do, yet I end up doing the opposite.  No, that doesn't mean I've gone running down the wrong path, but rather taking my eyes off of my Lord. He's right here, and He has a plan for my life, and I know this beyond a shadow of a doubt.  Why do I insist on trying to do things my way when I know that only opens a door for the enemy to begin throwing distractions at me. And, silly me, not only do I know they're distractions, but then I begin to entertain them.  Do you have a similar challenge?  How do you move beyond it?

As I sit here listening to the wind batter my house and watch the wind toss things around my yard, I realize that I've been similarly allowing things to blow me around.  Just like this pool, I've allowed "things" to turn my life upside down by trying to deal with things all by myself.  How silly of me.

I know where my answer lies, and I know Who my answer is.  I've been spending some time with God in prayer and reading His Word.  The key word here is "some," but it isn't nearly enough.  Playing this ridiculous "technical game," letting my mind tell me, "Yes, you've crossed that item off your day's to-do list," was a dangerous thing to do. Allowing myself this rationalization means that my solid ground has gotten slippery, my roots aren't as deep as they used to be.  Thank You, Lord, for allowing me choices!! It is high time that I make a choice to change my circumstances!!  The answer is so simple.  Spend more time with a loving, caring Lord and Saviour, who has a perfect plan for my life. 

Here I come, Lord, once again, asking forgiveness for my stubborn willfulness.  I need You to lay Your hand on my life, guide, protect and comfort me. Show me the path you'd have me take, because I know it is a perfect path. It know that it isn't a trouble-free path. There will be trials and tribulations along the way, You told me that in Your Word. But I know that it will be a perfect path to continue drawing me closer to You.  Amen.